To shout a voice mom, I was in tears ~ ~ ~

A I'm her man and the lover's mazarine

I was 8 years old, was my mother threw in her door. This gave birth to my woman said, if you follow me, only one. Your dad died, and even my own all could not support.

That day, the wind and the rain is a very big, my mom purple dress in the corner, I have lost even tears flowed not to come out. I'm in the rain and yell after her, run several road, exhausted, I will stand in the middle of the road, hoping what wagon I knocked down and let me leave this world...

In the evening, I still sit in the call LiChunHua woman door, she came back home, see a shivered from the cold children, a pack a few pieces of clothing box. She tight knead with my arm, the face heavy for a long time, a language not hair to bring me into the house.

I change for the clean clothes, she asked me, * * * to you? These things will I hide all the tears of derivation, I nod and shook his head, bite the lip, the tears flow a face. She perplexed after, and hold me in your arms, for a long time didn't speak.

I punch, see her out the damp, she took blower help me to blow a hair, her fingers, soft arms have shallow mint smell. She said, you see your hair, like him, and straight and hard. She suddenly lost his hair dryer, "t" to cry. She said, small warm, from now on, have an aunt of rice to eat, you of the one mouthful.

I think the world is strange, her man in one night, in order to give his lover to buy a sugar fry a chestnut, crossing the road had been hit by a car, and I, her man and the lover's illegitimate child, unexpectedly came over to her, and she accepted.

2 I how can against her kind?

I just knew, that in the world there are such love, I believe that no one will love her more than my father. She often stroking my hair, time of have a meal, also can stare at my eyebrow eye absent-minded. She said, you how so like him?

She turned to me, took me to learn of the report, she said, have what not happy, you will tell an aunt.

8 years old heart, have already for her words very fear, only half of the day, I ran back to her. She go to work in, "a rumbling" the machine, she ran out try so hard to ask me how I. I was a cry, don't know what to say... B: yes, I don't know how to tell her open mouth, the children despise me in my class, I sit at the same table, that firm the flower girl abandoned, bowknot of the mouth scold me shameless. She said, you a mazarine, still brazenly to find someone to keep you.

I bite a lip, refutes a word, she said is true. Every

She asked along while, look at me, I'm in addition to cry without any answer, can't help some fire borrowed bicycle to school to find my teacher in charge. Night came back, she said, this house price is very good, I want to sell it or rent out... I pick a bowl of rice didn't do any response, the day that child over the words in my mind back to my heart, tie the sole was painful.

Night, I packed their things, her door and a half open, and I saw her in the in bed not asleep. I crept open the door went forth, and heard her very vigilance ground get out of bed.

Sitting in the chair, the night so dark, the world is so great, I already did not know should go to where.

I heard she reverberation call out my name, so that the area see her from getting out. I was hiding in the darkness, and a mouth say a word. Just a week, I already know her kindness, she bought me a beautiful bed, a lot of clothes and clip; Every day she from account to take money out, for I "hua" to take out; She also very carefully, and only seven days, I have a meal of the be fond of will be her to touch clearly, the cooking no longer ginger peeled tomatoes, remember...

She's good, let I fear, I think she is? Should I hate, because my appear, eyebrow eye all keeps her man in the betrayal. How could I stay at her side, against her kind?

When the dawn is coming, she is in my mother's area doorway in the I. She said, you say you have no mother came back, I knew you'd come.

She dressed only in a coat, the inside is thin pajamas, this woman, in cold tablets took five hours, and my mother is in after she left always has not come out asked.

She said, an aunt to you is not good enough, is it? I shook his head and said, it is I don't deserve you. She felt my hair, small warmer, we move.

Just two days of time, we moved to east from west, I know she literally, because no one here to know everything to me, no one will laugh at me. East of house prices high, our common to house to someone else, should also be part of a month out to rent we now house. She gave me find the school and teacher in charge, and had a long talk, send me to the door of the classroom of time, she actually squat down down and kissed my forehead. On the day that the sun so well, her body like a golden of rosy clouds.

Three her simple but complicated love

I didn't expect to make her life so big of gas, 15 years old lane that summer, a man would send me a string of pearls, glittering and translucent and inviting. Sheen He took me to his home, give me cut fruit, pour drinks.

We just sat down for a few minutes, she was hit rang the door. It turns out she's early work, the aunt told she saw me into the man's home, she was mad chase come in, shouted at me as loud growl, pull the I'll go. I murmur, but she was urgent, give me your hand a slap.

After we finished, all leng. She held out her hand, want to pull me, yet empty, turned back home.

The next day, she took a lot of money, take me on coach, a western restaurant to the provincial capital. See along while menu, ordered cheese pizza, baked potato, black fungus goose liver steak, still point the sweet strong baili liqueur, a glass of just 30 yuan. Each is a small part of her own, but don't eat, she said, had an aunt, girls is strange to rich keep of, what kind of world is to see, and the temptation to not be lost. The man was stained, how could you do something to him?

This woman, spent hundreds of money belt I eat this a meal, want to let me understand a truth. I really understand, but not because it a meal, but because she eyeful anxious. I said, mom, I know. My name is some ambiguity, she still listen to clear, she burst into tears.

On the way back, she burst out with me said a lot. She said she always can't have children of his own, so, she understand him, hate, love, finally choosing to forgive.

I correct her, not to love, is to love.

Back then, I 15 years old, have been to understand her love, and therefore shock. Home still have his things, his shirts are neatly tie in the closet, his parents she still every few weekend will be to visit, his daughter she keeps... If not love, who can do this?

Four she expected to live a life I.

I at the age of 18, my mother came back for me, my biological mother.

She's at my school gate, let me go with her. She said, I am now everything is stable, your stepfather promise to give you do go abroad formalities, you an aunt in give you clear up. Her mouth is a match and it seems to be to should but things. She said, at that time, I really hard, can give you nothing.

I shook his head, this time, in the mind to think is full of her, LiChunHua, over the years, she also is really difficult, but, she doing all it can to give no blood I.

Mother said, "I have given her said, she agreed I take you away. My heart crashing and ring, how can? She really so willing to me?

I breath ran home, she in my room, sitting on my bed, touched my pillow, only this action, then let my love and pain. She said, * * * gave me a lot of money, you see.

The fold a money on the table, she took them, steal to smile. She said, you go, otherwise, the money * * * to go back, I'm retired now, the money is useful to me.

I left at the door to her line gift, kneeling on the ground, and "head. She is low head, until I leave all have no up, I saw her feet have something on "drip-drip-drip" blow down, the wet a large.

I didn't go abroad, just go to the hundreds of miles away from her in the city. Soon, I will receive her money order, that money, she points is not bad to me, a postscript, she said, thank you to accompany me for years. I cry went to the post office, sat on the steps of the post office, holding the money kept crying. Mom, did I not know she said those words are let me leave, but I can not understand what she... Because I didn't know her darling leave, her live life to expect me to.

Five mom, happy birthday!

I take the subway to work every day, the city of a very complex, overpasses and often let I lost. Every time, I will think of her take my hand all the way walk of warmth.

I finally remained in the city, and bought a small house. Birth mother with her man went abroad, she said, you don't go, I also can't do your Lord, anyway RenZhiYiJin to you as well.

But, I told her, that kept me ten years of women RenZhiYiJin?

We like I have a telepathic, I bought the tickets on the way back to see her, had received her message. She said, small warm, I miss you...... I recently body special not, don't know why dizzy in the past two times, this time, you know how much I missing you!

She never took this tone with my speech, she used a lot of exclamation mark, let my heart all pulled up. I back the train tickets, take the fastest plane again, actually hurried to the airport, only in the fast half an hour just... How do I find that I have so many tears, from security to the terminal, from takeoff to the landing, I kept tears.

The neighbor's child asked my mother, the quietly aunt why have been crying? * * * mother said, because she wants to mother for me. I grin may smile to her, I really want to mother!

After coming home, she was lying on my bed, and hand over the album when I was a kid, I see, unexpectedly is a full face of guilt, and she said, oh, you really come back? You see, I how so bother?

Night, I lay in her arms, has been wanting to tell her, do you know why I will go to Beijing? In fact, just because she wanted the city. She said, dad ever take her have been there once, she said, is that she is the most beautiful of time, so, they like to that city. She said, as long as the thought of the city, can feel warm.

I remember these things, I want to let she followed me to go to the city, I want to give her my father owe all her, I want her to have been warm and happy......

Today is her sixtieth birthday, wrote this article, give her, my dearest mother!!!!!